Picture immense, firm, monotone, organic masses. These masses are so large that depending where I am in this void, I feel as if I will be crushed, yet at the same time I never physically touch these masses and their immense forms continue to grow and dominate my existence.
The space is brightly and evenly lit. There may be shadows.
Experiencing the sheer scale of such objects is a sensorial act. I can sense it, I know it, even if I can't see it. It's more of an out of body experience. I am involved, yet I can step out of the picture and asses the situation.
This experience is not seen through crisp, awake or natural eyes. It's a different kind of seeing. It's as if I am blind, but could still see in terms of smell, sound, taste and feeling. I can see through my other senses, yet I still have eyes.
I feel scared, overpowered and powerless.
I am not sure that I can fully explain or describe this situation correctly. This is my attempt.
I see/feel/taste/hear/smell this image or dream repeatedly. Although, I have not experienced it since I was in high school. It is very hard to explain such a scenario because my senses act as one in the dream. Almost as if I could experience all five senses in one organ, in addition to senses that aren't natural to humans.
I began to experience this dream at an early age. I don't remember exactly when.
I can't say that I hate it, or love it. Sometimes I wish I could make myself dream it. It's almost as if I am dizzy.
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